I'm so confused right now. However, given that christmas has given me a break to appreciate the compfort of community, family, and contentment - I am anything but content. In fact I feel almost scared to be content. It really does scare me. I'm in derby now, but I've signed onto 6 projects in london to begin soon - I also don't know if I'm doing my masters in the new year. I've been researching overload, and feeling quite numb about everything. It's weird. I feel like I'm in no mans land, or trapped in a glass balloon, or something. I don't know.
Anyway, events wise it's my dads birthday tomorrow. I think we're doing a small family celebration. My sister is baking a cake, and I bought him various smelling products. I'm also going to properly write my business plan, and buy a nice dress I think. Also, I need to stock up on presents and buy a present for my brother. It's going to be very busy, very schizophrenic time, but if I can get through this, it will make the next few years way fucking easier.
I'm excited, but scared.
I feel very irritated, but very excited.